A Week of Good News Lightens My Load
Last week was one of those weeks in which everything that could go right, did. It was amazing actually. I can’t remember the last time that I had an entire week full of one set of great news after the other. Each day brought something new and amazing. We certainly spent Friday night celebrating all that occurred!
It was also in some ways an emotional one for me in that I feel like I can finally close a few chapters in my book of life. One, being the exposure of my past situation with a postpartum disorder. It’s amazing how I was terrified of revealing that past, but it ended up being the best choice possible. I feel free from a darkness and I didn’t realize how much weight it had held in my life.
The next was a journey I’ve been on for quite some time. To quickly cover years of history…once upon a time I served active duty in the Air Force. During that time I was hurt, operated on many times and left with knee issues that have plagued me ever since. It’s always been such a frustrating part of my life. I am young (-ish?), healthy, in shape, but unable to do so many activities that other can do. I can’t run. I can’t jump. I can’t kneel. I can’t go through my day without pain.
I finally decided to submit my paperwork for a VA disability and I started on the very long road that it entails.
Last week I got word that it was approved. I had been told that I wouldn’t hear a decision until August and I was expecting an initial decline and appeal process, but instead I received a swift approval. At a percentage that is higher than I was initially told was possible. This was an amazing moment for me! Yes, the back pay, monthly compensation and health care is awesome – but it’s more than that. It felt like I was vindicated. After years of….”just run it off”….”toughen up”….it was an acknowledgement of what had happen, of the pain I’ve gone through and the huddles I’ve had to jump. The stories I could tell you about the healthcare I received while enlisted are atrocious.
But now, it’s done. The mistakes made are now on paper and it’s time to let the frustration go. Of course my knee issues remain and they will with time continue to get worse, but that morsel of acknowledge really brought me a great deal of peace in the whole situation.
I come into this week with a little more pep in my step from the past week of unloading emotions that I didn’t even realize were weighting me down. It certainly makes me look deeper into myself to see what other areas of my life could use a bit of spring cleaning.